It was coming for her once again. Another moving truck. A smaller one this time. It was only for her things.
It was coming to take her back.
She knew that it was what needed to happen, it was a fitting end to this part of the journey. It seemed, every year, the reset button controlling her life was pushed as if someone was getting bored with the channel.
The mistake that she made was thinking that the end game was here. A place where shining lakes and mountains surrounded her, a place that she wanted to make her home.
But no. Not now.
it all fit in one room. That was her collection. One room full of clothes, dishes, photos, cleaning supplies, and random oddities from her short life. She thought it was slightly laughable. “I amount to one room.” One room. One moving truck. Going back.
This was the something that she knew was coming. It was August, the time of change.
She had franticly striped the walls, stacked the dishes and hung the clothes just to get it out of her site. Out of his way. She thought this hurried action would impact him in some way. It was her statement. “Your life will be blank,” it was supposed to say to him when he returned. But it only made her feel more alone when she was done. All of it in that one room.
Two blankets and a pillow were waiting on the sofa. Yes, they were warm. No, they were not what she wanted.
(One His Night Stand. Not eloquent by any means)
This time next week I will be out of your life. Because you wish it to be so; I will leave you your life and I will try to begin mine again. I will hurt for a long while because of the emotional investment I placed with you. I would have followed you anywhere. You took me to places and let me be a part of an adventure that I only hope someday to continue with you. I am just sorry that I could not meet your expectations in some of the areas that you needed at this time in your life.
I respect that you need to build your relationship back with your father. Family is important and I wish you the best in that venture.
You know I wanted to build a life with you and I thought we were working to that. I know that you are a worthy person and I will always hold hope that I will see you again and that you will feel for me what you once did. You will always be part of my heart. I gave it to you fully and I also hope that you will one day realize what kind of person I see when I look at you. You are kind, and have a caring gentleness that has yet to be explored. You truly were a person that saved me when I was at a low point in my life and I will remember our times of love with fond sadness.
Despite my sadness at this adventure’s end, I am yet, still thankful for the time that you have given me to be part of your journey.
Be well and find happiness. My only other wish is that someday we can revisit what we once had again perhaps when both of us are more ready.
I thank you for the moments of profound joy that I had with you. I was able to love and care for you unlike any other person before you. You game me some of my happiest moments. For that I am most grateful.
My love and my heart with you